I spent a while trying to find a way of defining me for this but it appears to be an impossible task. I'll give it my best go, but I'm still finding new things out about me all the time.
I got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes on Wednesday 13th of December 2006. It’s a sad way to start things off but, since being diagnosed I’ve changed to adapt to it, I can’t remember much of the days leading up to my diagnoses, of who I was, or how I was, maybe it’s something deep and psychological that blocked those thoughts out, or it might be my mother’s memory that I inherited! Either way I have no intention of digging up my past feelings, of weakness and pain back up just quite yet. I’ll dig further into my diagnoses later on. I’m now finishing my last year of high school, with my newly gained acceptance of diabetes, a few A*’s in my pocket and my bout of confidence I feel like this is going to be a good year. I am slowly dreading the inevitable leave but I know good things will come from it. I would love to be a wildlife film maker, the Steve Irwin kind of stuff really gets my dreams flowing, not the usual ambition for a teenage girl, but then again, I’d hate to be “the usual.” Yes, Nick Jonas is an inspiration for me, but not because I’m some crazed Jonas fan only liking him because he’s pretty. But because his music is amazing, especially “A little bit longer” which is about diabetes, and yes the inspiration for the header of my blog space. A little bit longer brings me back to my diagnoses I can almost feel fear, I can guarantee 3 out of 5 times I listen to that song I cry. Crying can be good though, it clears the mind, and I cry at least once a month. Not because I am depressed, I’m 15 I have nothing to be depressed about, not even diabetes! But because I watch a good film, or I remember how good my life is and how blessed I am...Don’t get me wrong though, I am “normal”, I do have my downs and have spent more than my fair share of nights crying over boys, and feeling sorry for myself. I try to be miss positive, otherwise if you’re not everything is already halfway to beating you. And if you can’t tell already I like to waffle until I’ve made a very blunt point, back to describing me... I love my family and friends, without them I’d have no reason to live. I despise rude, arrogant people, especially people that write in such a strong slang that I could mistake it for a bad example of the alphabet. I try to laugh at everything, I get told I’m mature for my age which I am, but I try to be as immature (in a fun way) for as long as possible, the thoughts of responsibilities and decisions are inviting and scaring me. I’ll try to be young for as long as I can. If I’m passionate about something I’ll achieve it. Which brings me to my favourite 3 words, passion, motivation and enthusiasm, with those three words you can achieve every dream you truly set your heart to. I strongly believe that. I can give out good advice, but I struggle to take my own, I’m smart in exams, but give me relationships and I get an F before I even start. But I’m young, there’s plenty of time to trick someone yet! I use Google to define way too much, and I hate people that belittle people for things they can’t change, and don’t swear at me in an argument it’s a pathetic come back. Don’t talk to me in the morning, I’m still in a deep trance until about an hour after waking, and will most likely bite your head off. Words can be powerful, be careful how you use them, but they are defenceless against actions, that’s something I learnt after a lot of thinking. I hate it when I’m frustrated and I can’t get things out of my mind, but nowhere near as much as I hate putting kisses to someone and they don’t put any back! I’d just like to say thank you if you’ve read this far, you either care enough, have nothing to do, or find my waffling hilarious. One final point for now...
I’m currently waiting on the edge of my seat for an artificial pancreas, I can tell they are going to be amazing, and soon there will be a cure.
Like I said” a little bit longer and I’ll be fine. “
I’m currently waiting on the edge of my seat for an artificial pancreas, I can tell they are going to be amazing, and soon there will be a cure.
Like I said” a little bit longer and I’ll be fine. “
